Blog Thirty Nine
So this week Ive started a masters degree and spent a lot of time resting a very sore ankle. Abosulutely loving the MSc work - in Health Informatics - so interesting although hard work as Im covering the learning in the evenings as well as working full time. The MSc is with Swansea University but is being run blended with overseas and UK students which is making life so interesting.
Apart from the sore ankle I rolled my body felt pretty good. A lot of people were worried that I should be resting after being in hospital last week but it isnt how I find things work. Immediately after a seizure I am exhausted. This is exacerbated by the lack of sleep in the HDU and the fact that I am so picky with food that I cant eat much in hospital, combined with the uncertainty of when I would be out (as you can tell I like plans!) making me very tired. However as soon as I am back sleeping and eating normally and the medication has everything under control I recover very fast. I guess for me its very much the difference between a neurological condition and an illness, and seizures arent an illness. I am just annoyed that things went haywire, more than anything my brain failing me like this frustrates me. Whilst in hospital I lost so much time I dont remember, cannot crete a timeline of events, couldnt process and reason as I normally would and it highlighted what I have found so difficult with. Im not sure if it happened because of something I did or didnt do, or just one of those things, but it nearly cost me running the marathon which would have been so upsetting after all the work and made me lose days at work which let my work team down. I just hope that things are now stabilised and stay that way.
But I plan to be back running again this weekend - gently to start with but then the speed training starts to get my times down before I build towards Brighton in March.
Now Ive been there I realise, marathons arent scary, its the unknown that scares you. Yes it hurts, but pain is no necessarilty a bad thing - just because it burns it doesnt mean its bad for you. Now I know what it feels like I cant wait to the next one.